Project 360 - a complete revolution

I've been feeling sorry for myself lately. Like, in a dumb way, because I have nothing to complain about,really. I was talking to my husband about this dumbness,and how it's discouraging that on the eve of the holidays, which I love, and with so many good things going on I just am not feelin' it. And that's not like me - I'm usually feelin' Christmas in July, pining for the shorter days and deep sleep and special food, all in anticipation of a new year. A fresh start.

My husband is a good man, and he doesn't entertain pity parties as a rule, but he was listening carefully during this protracted whine and he offered me some really good guidance - he suggested that I stop waiting for a new year, for some magical day to find my footing. With so many things to do, procrastinating, or trying to assign something meaningful to what is essentially a random date on the calendar only serves to stall, or even reverse, any momentum that might come from the awakening we all experience from time to time. The time to act is now, in the moment. That it is all we have.

In the interest of immediacy, I' m starting a 360 day project. 360 days because the things I need to do are multitude, and this ain't no 2010 day rehab. But still,time line is in order, and it lot of little things becoming a whole - a year seems fair to accomplish it. 360 days makes sense, because it's year, less a few holidays -Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Easter, and my birthday (no my birthday is not actually a holiday, but for my purposes I'm declaring it one).

My list is long, I'm not posting it yet, but in the interest of commitment it seems fitting to start this project today, The Feast of All Saints, and my husbands and my 14th wedding anniversary. In celebration of the best decision I ever made, I thought a few more might be in order, and the symbol for this undertaking is none other than a Ferris wheel. I initially thought a sundial would be suitable, but it didn't do a rotation all it's own, it's passive, in the shadow of the sun. A Ferris wheel, though, goes all the way around, way up high, where you can see a far piece, and you have to make the deliberate decision to ride it even though you might throw up. Get on it, and then employ someone to operate it for you - as in ask for help, relying on others. Yikes. More throwing up. What am I doing, that sounds crazy?

Aren't you glad you asked? Maybe not - but you probably can't look away. Hopefully, none of us will regret this.

Peace, yo.